Time to Let Go

Right now, what I want to do is to relax in one of clawfoot tubs by bathsofdistinction filled with my favorite aromatherapy oil. I feel so tired every day even after napping for 1 to 2 hours. My body still has not adjust to the new routine. I have been sick (cough n stuffing nose) for almost a month already and there is no sign of healing. When I am about to get better, one of my children is down with runny nose or cough, I will get it back from them. My immune system used to be stronger. When they fall sick, I wouldn't. I have weaned off my 2yo boy and now in the process of weaning my 8mo. I feel bad/guilty/sad for my 8mo baby but I have no choice. I can't let them "suck me dry" anymore. I need the nutrition for my body now. I hate the maid for not keeping her word. I shouldn't have trusted her.

I Want More Breast Milk

For my first 3 babies, I was not able to produce enough breast milk for them. Partly because I did not get much encouragement from my mom (she kept telling me to mix with formula milk) and by the time I go to work they went on formula milk.

When I give birth to my 4th baby, I was determined to fully breastfeed him till 24mo. However, I was not producing enough breast milk for him. Not wanting to get him on formula milk, I went online to search on how to increase breast milk production. There I found out about Fenugreek and I also discovered that some mommies I know is taking the Fenugreek in capsule form. So, I bought half a kilo of Fenugreek and send them to the mill to be grounded. Way cheaper than buying the capsules. Fenugreek helps increased my breast milk production.

When I am pregnant with my 5th child, my 4th child is only 1yo. Since I wanted to breast feed my 4th child till 2yo. I keep on telling myself that I can produce enough breast milk for 2. I am very determine. It is all in the mind. If you think you can, you surely can. Even the lactation consultant mentioned the same; it is all in the mind.

True enough, I am breastfeeding both my newborn and toddler now. I have more than enough for my newborn and her brother gets to latch more than just twice a day. He is hardly on formula milk now. I did not take any Fenugreek. I just let them latch as often as possible and drink lots of liquid.

I need to produce more Milk!

My baby is going to be 5 months old tomorrow and my boobs no longer gets engorge as before. Does this means that my milk is getting lesser? Apart from this, my baby wakes up often too for milk like every 3 hourly. No more 6 hours straight for sleeping during the night.

How to increase milk production? I tried eating a lot but my small tummy can only take in certain amount of food. And I am getting more skinny even without any best diet pills.

I am not ready to feed my baby formula milk yet. I am not ready to spend so much money buying formula milk. There are so expensive these days!